A Conversation with God

Father you know I've been praying hard, real hard. And lots of other people have been praying too. Surely you've heard us. Maybe we could talk louder. Maybe we only think we're praying hard. That's probably it. We just need to put more energy into our prayers.

Uh oh!

I'm getting the feeling that you’re becoming a little impatient with me Lord. There's a little voice that's beginning to increase in volume. Now I'm beginning to sweat!

What was that?
Sometimes John, what you want is not what you need and believe it or not, to your good fortune I have to step in. Even when I know that giving you what you need is going to knock you to your knees. Believe me it hurts me more than I can possibly have you understand when I feel that I must handle something this way. You know that every tear you've cried over Kelsey has fallen right into my hand. I haven't missed a single one and every one of your tears has brought a tear to my own eye. And since when did you start speaking for either God or Kelsey? How do you know what she and I have or haven't discussed during her illness? Why do you think you know more about what both you and Kelsey need than I do? Remember your place, and especially remember mine. I created Kelsey. I had a plan for her long before she ever came to you. Have you forgotten what you told me the night she was born? Don't you remember how happy you were that I did not take either Kelsey or Suzanne that night, even though they were both so close to coming home to me? Believe me it could have gone either way that night.
I listened to you then because it was what you needed at the time. You needed desperately for Kelsey and Suzanne to survive and stay with you. I made it happen. Once again though, I'm asking if you remember what you said to me that night; No? Well let me remind you. You said that I had given you a chance to see Kelsey and that if I decided to take her that night you would rejoice at having known her. You do remember don't you? Well, what if I now decide it's time to take her fourteen years later? What has changed since then?

Lord, please forgive me, but a great deal has changed. I don't want to be disrespectful, but I have had all these years to grow in my love for Kelsey. You let me continue to know her and watch her grow and love her more each year she has been with us. How horribly cruel to allow that and then snatch her away!

My point exactly John, I could have taken Kelsey that night; very few expected her to survive, and Suzanne had lost so much blood...well, I'm sure you remember. Remember also John, that my gift to you has been having the opportunity to love Kelsey for all these years. Would you have had me not give you that opportunity? You can't have it both ways and you don't always get what you want - not in this life anyway.You do remember my son don't you? Believe me, you did not have to stand by and watch Kelsey beaten to a bloody pulp, hung on a cross, ridiculed and spit on only to have her think, if only for a second, that you had abandoned her. John, I love your daughter Kelsey dearly. She is so joyful now, so alive, and so thankful for being here. She was ready. She knew it and I knew it. That’s why she was smiling when she left you.
John, Kelsey’s work there is done but yours must continue for now. It’s a veil John, just a thin veil that separates you from Kelsey and before long the veil will be lifted.

Thank you Father. No more questions.

Kelsey, we’re coming baby.
Until then we will choose to cherish those we love in this world just as you did.

See you shortly!